lost, cnfused, n sad.

salam all,

tis few days..
is the dae where im cnfused wif my life again..
im trying to survive n tried to cheer myself up..
well,
hmm..
im really lost of my life whereby i dnt noe wat shld i decided
n wat ive done..
in my life,
i owaes have this feeling whereby whenever i fell in love,
i will noe when i found tat sum1 special to me,
it will nt be mine.
idk y.
idk y i gt tis negative feelings.
bt tis feeling is 99% tepat..
weird..
hmm..
bt its ok..
ive owaes try my best to move on wif my life..
eventhough its hard for me..
ppl owaes see by my exterior, ppl owaes tot im owaes a happy guy,
joke here n there..
bt im owaes trying to hide my sadness cox i dnt wish to have ppl pity on me.
cox i noe ppl r oso sad deep in them..
bt i my interior, i have this deep feelings when i day dreams or when im thinking far away, alone, i will have tears came out frm my eyes.
my sadness is way2 deep in me..
i wish dat i can be as happy as most other ppl r..
im juz a guy who need attention frm my family, frens n my love one.
so to all my people,
plz forgive me for everything ive done..
im juz an idiot who owaes trying to pretend something tat im nt good at.
so yeah..
n to tat sum1, im sorri for everything.
i noe at times, i am irritating.
bt sumtime, u noe hw to make me happy n smile.
thnks for everything.
i wrote this when otw sending u hme..
tis is meant for u..
hope u like it..

"Cinta. Apa itu cinta?
Cinta adalah sebuah perasaan dlm hati yg amat indah sekali.
Cinta itu buta tetapi cinta yg suci adalah sngt indh dlm kehidupan.
Cinta asalnya dari perasaan dan membawa ke hati.
Cinta yg suci sentiasa membuat mu gembira dan sedih.
Walaupun penuh dengan cabaran dlm percintaan,
utkku, cinta adalah indah seperti syurga.
Cinta ku hanya utkmu sahaja."

CHALO!

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