fallin sick, stressed, mixed feelings.

salam all readers..

hmm.. feel like falling sick soon..
my body starts to shiver..
mybe juz stressed out..
mixed feeling n confusion.
n i really2 want to stop sm***ing..
so far so good. todae i did nt sm***.
tats y mybe im sick..
bt i dnt care.
i really wnt to quit n i did promise to sum1
tat i want to quit.
so be it..
haish,
alot of thoughts running thru my head..
idk wat shld i do nw..
i did move alot of things..
bt when i move on, eventhough im glad i did.
n when i found sum1 new, i owaes have this feeling
tat i noe i wont get sum1 to be myne.
mybe im scared to fall in love aft watever happens to me in the past.
im nt rushing into relationship n im nt desperate for love.
cox i really want to be serious in a relationship 1 dae.
haish.. forget abt it.. nvm..
well, nw trying to relax my mind.
so i did by went to town juz nw aft goin to hyatt hotel to take my uniforms.
was wif Muiz.
as we was strolling arnd town, n when i see couples walking together, bypass me,
i feel kinda jealous. lol.
idk y. hmm.. cox its hard for me to be in a relationship n be wif happy wif it.
aft all the bad experience happens to me.
seriously, if i get sum1 special to be mine..
i ll cherish n treasure her loads.
only Allah noes who will it be..


"Ya Allah,
tenangkan lah fikiran dan hati hambamu ini ya Allah,
kerana engkau lah maha pengasih dan maha penyayang."


CHALO :(

(hanya engkau lah mampu membuat ku bahagia)